If you only knew....

UPDATE IN APRIL.....

2011-04-05T06:16:00.000-07:00

it's April so I figured an update would be good. Lets see..... Evan is 3 weeks shy of 2 years old. Wait, did I just sa 2?!?!? Holy freakin cow, I can not believe my 34 week, 4 lb premie is almost 2. Wow!!!

on another note, I'm getting married in exactly 1 month and 2 days!! Eeeekkkk that is exciting. I have a wedding blog as well you should go check out. May 7th is approaching quicly.

life is going quite well for me and I have God to thank for that.... He has gotten me through everything I have been faced with.

Moms.....

2011-03-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

These past couple weeks I have been going through this "im a crappy mom" phase. I have days where I feel wonderful being a mother and then I have other days where I feel like I am a lazy piece of crap mom. But I have come to realize that there are different types of moms out there. Moms come in all shapes and sizes, a different in every single way.
You have working moms, stay at home moms, crafty moms and soccer moms. Those moms who love couponing and those who love spoiling their kids. Moms who have other careers and moms who aren't quite ready to be moms yet. Moms who feed their children with no perservitive foods and moms who give candy for prizes. Moms who stay up late helping you with homework and moms who stay up all day helping you do schoolwork. Moms who gave birth and moms who
stepped up to be moms.
Being a mom has impacted my life in so many different ways. And I may not had been ready to be a mom quite yet but God felt I was ready and blessed me with this beautiful baby (almost toddler) boy. I may not do crafts with him all day nor may I feed him the most healthy foods; but I do what I can and what fits our lives. Evan is healthy and happy and that's all I could ask for :)

wow... there are so many things wrong!!!!

2010-04-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

so.. i'm sitting here watching "Wife Swap"...... and what it is, is 2 different families swap wives for 2 weeks. Week 1 the new wife must live like the famiy normally would; the 2nd week the new wives make up there own rules for how the family should live......... well while watching this certian episode.. my heart melted and tightened up all in one.............. let me explain all the things wrong with at was going on.

Family #1

The Close-Minded Christians

family 1 was a very conservitive "black" family who believed highly in there christian faith. they prayed every morning and night as a family and before meals..... went to church on sundays and churchly functions through-out the week............ i find nothing wrong with this................ but also the family never let there 3 kids go out with there friends, picked out there clothes, and gave them no privacy. the kids were not allowed to question much of anything and most answeres were....... becuase its Gods way.......... relgion was pretty much forced on these children and they have no idea why. this family also lives in man law........ which is where the man goes to work and comes home while the wife does ALL the cleaning, cooking, and taking care of the kids.

Family #2

The Athiest

family 2 was a tattoo-ed up, mohawk wearing no God believing family. they let there kids wear whatever they wanted and taught there kids that there is no god.... there is no higher power. This family also host pole parties once a week, where there is pole danicing and drinking, oh and yes the kids are there (ages 10-13). the husband cleans and the wife works on the computer at home all day.

My Opinion...............

both families are crap!!!!!!

Both Families push their religion on there children and dont answer any questions the kids have as to why they believe what they do... family 1's parents just say "thats theway it is" and family 2, the kids just follow there parents and do what they do. Neither of these parents have explained to their kids what is going on.

Also, there should be no "man and/ or woman" laws.......... i think both parents no i take tha back.. .all members of the family should help out around the house. No certian person should do everything. God does say that man is the head of the house... but not in a cleaning/ cooking matter........ it is more in a "leading your family" way.

it honestly hurt my heart for family 2 to throw down the bibles the mom had brought and for the son to say "lets go TP the church... just to mock the "new mom" and her beliefs and the dad did absoluty nothing... he could atleast teach his kids respect

and family 1.... they did respect the atheist mom and her difference....... but the way they sheltered thier children was ridiculous....... the new mom did convince the dad to let their oldest go on a group outing to the bowling alley.... and she very much enjoyed it.....

at the end of the show........ it shows how the swap had affected the families.....

the new family #1

the parents still press God on their children and don't really let them question anything........ but did start letting their oldest go out with her friends more often..... i think if they have soo much faith in God and how strongly their beliefs are... they should let there children go out and believe what they have taught them will carry on with them and they should trust them. Also, there is no more man law......... the husband and kids help out around the house.

the new family #2

this family is still athiest and still lets there kids pretty much do what they want.... BUT on the upside... this family spends alot more family time together and less pole dancing.

All in all............. I think both families are wrong..... you shoudl teach your kids right from wrong, you shouldn't shelter them and every person in the family should contribute. Family should come first and parents should share their morals and values with their kids....

and no.. i'm not trying to tell anyone what relgion is right and wrong... and NO i'm not telling anyone how to raie their kids.... this is just all my opinion on the show i watched.

Evan's 1st Halloween!!!

2009-11-03T10:40:00.000-08:00

** my camera is **misplaced** so all of these are from my phone.. sorry**

so... my little lobster hated his outfit but looked tooo darn cute in it!!!

and my little niece and nephew looked just as awesome....

and we hung out with my family.........

yeah they weren't soo cute.... but she is.......

and all in all... it was a great day.... :)

Short, Fat, and Handsome

2009-11-03T10:28:00.000-08:00

So.... my little man is 6 months old and growing up soo fast!!!

He can roll over both ways very well....

He can sit up on his own...... most of the time :)

He is 19lbs.... 26 inches long..........

oh... and hold his own bottle..... when he wants too.....

overall.. this little cutie is gettin soo big and growing up soo much!!!

5 months :)

2009-09-21T11:23:00.000-07:00

I am way overdue for a post... sorry guys!!!

Evan is now 5 months old..... 18lbs.... and 25 inches long!!!

He can hold his own bottle (most of the time)

and discovered his feet

Evan has also experienced a bunch of first...........

First food (applesauce)

1st trip to the Varsity

and First trip to the good ole' Henry County Fair

All in all.. he is growing soo fast and behaving soo well..... God has truly blessed me with a GOOD baby!!!!

I have started back to school (Griffin tech) but taking night classes for now so i can stay at home with Evan during the day!!.. i am soo inlove with that little thing!!! :)

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday!!

2009-09-09T13:29:00.001-07:00

4 months old.... 15 1/2 lbs..... 25 in. long!!

Movie Review 2

2009-08-19T09:05:00.000-07:00

Distric 9... didn't really want to see it but it turned out not to bad... started off kinda lam but ended up really good A-

Funny People.... it was okay... had some funny parts but it was way to long and draged out!... not one of sandlers best!

Knowing

It was eehh... ruined... really good movie up until the end and then it was ruined!!! i know its been out but i just saw it!!

Doctors and Food and Life

2009-08-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

so... i have been sick with a good ol sinus infection and an ear infection.... mama took off last week while i was doing really bad and helped me with Evan (she rocks)... and i tried to stay away from him as much as possible but i still managed to give him the "booly"(as mama calls it).. so we took him to the doctor after 2 days of coughing and sneezing and he too has an ear infection.... my baby's first ear infection :( ... but he is doing soo good to be in a little pain... i told ya'll he was my little rock!!.... they put him on the pink bublegum medicine, which by the way anti-biotics are free at publix, and hes doing okay with it.... he is getting better and i'm pretty much healed.

Last sunday we (me, josh and Evan) joined alot from my moms side of the family on a journey to the family reunion up towards helen, gainsville area, and we hada blast. Games, meeting, introducing, and food!!... Evan even won a pize for being the youngest person there :) You know, i think the food is my favorite part of family reunions... all of the "old" people cookin' it up in the kitchen.. .yum yum!!

OH... speaking of doctor... while we were there... we were informed that Evan weighs 14 lbs 7oz.... he is getting to be quite the chunky thing.... and i started loading some videos on youtube of Evan.. cause hes cute and I can do that... Click Here .... and compliments to lexa and her step mom... evan got a new swing and bouncy thingy and loves them both and i am so very thankful :)

I know i have more to say but i can't think of what it was.....

PROOF!!!!

2009-08-06T08:47:00.000-07:00

God's work is shown all around us; sometimes we see it and sometimes we overlook it. A lot of times we pray for something and it doesn't happen and then we question God. "How come when I prayed for it, if didn't come" or "God isn't real because he didn't answer my prayers." But then there are those times when .our prayers are answered and sometimes we don't even have to pray for our needs, God just knows. Well I now can be a witness to all and say that God does hear our prayers and I have proof!! You see I had difficulties during my pregnancy. All was well until about 33 weeks, and then I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia (or toxemia) and was hospitalized for 10 days. Short Story, my blood pressure was extremely high and I had way too much protein in my urine due to kidney failure due to the high BP. So anywho my body was going hay-wire and it woudln't get better untill the baby came out. As some of you might know, a baby full term is 40 weeks but is pretty much done areound 38 weeks. Well I was 33 weeks and struggling. The doctors were trying to hold off as long as they could (for the baby's sake)

Back to Prayes being answered; I was pretty much told I was going to be in the hospital until I had the baby and the baby was coming out within a week. As soon as I got to 34 weeks, they induced me and eventually had to do a c-section. Through the week of me being layed up in the hospital, I kept my friends and family updated frequently. Come to find out all of them had been praying for me and Evan the whole time and keeping their faith in God (as was I ).

The day I was induced, the NICU doctor came in and told me and Josh to be prepared, becasue most babies this young don't have fully developed lungs and that he would most likely be on a breathing machine and a feeding tube. We were a little scared, but prepared and still kept our faith in God and asked all of our friends and family to contiune praying (and they did) Well after Evan was born, and we went down to the NICU to see him.... he had NO tubes, NO wires, NO nothing!! He was on a heart monitor, but all babies in the NICU are and had an IV but thats it.. thats right... my baby was HEALTHY!!... He was underweight, but that is becasue he was born 6 weeks early, and that was the only thing keeping him in the hospital. Ihad a healthy 4 pound pre-mature baby. The doctors had said that this was one rare baby and that we were very blessed!!

So as I look back, God did answer everyone's prayers. People who didn't even know Evan yet were praying for him and they all got answered! If you look at Evan now, you would never be able to tell he was a premature baby and i could never ask for anything else. I am also healty again and survived birth :)

THEN

NOW!!

So I would personally like to thank each and every one of ya'll who had me and/or Evan in your thoughts and prayers. They were answered!!!

Gina's Movie Review

2009-08-02T19:57:00.001-07:00

Me and Josh tend to go to the movies atleast a couple of times a month.. just to get a break and all! So i figured I would share with my friends what movies I liked and what i thought about them and all

Ice Age 3 was halirous!!! Amazing movie.... alot of adult humor in it and can be a little scary for little kids.. but overall A+... kept me and josh entertained!

The Proposal was soo funny!.. I love Sandra Bullock and this one was defiantly one of her best! Good story.. Good Plot.. Great Humor!! A+

The Orphan... Very good movie... suspencefull.. kinda gory.... way twisted ending.... kinda predictlable though in a way!... Still very good.. B++

The Collector.... wow.. not so much scary.. more thriller-suspence type movie... way Gory.. kind of like Saw but not as good... still a good one... B

Harry Potter... i'm not a big fan at all of Harry Potter.. but overall it was a good movie.. very well made and it kept me interested even though i don't like that potter fellow!!... It was extremely long though.... B+

Bruno... all i have to say is wow....... horrible movie.... it had some funny parts... some gay porn scenes... and just some down right nastyness!!!.... F++

so that is what we saw recently.... i love movies.. i love all type of movies... we also watched a movie called "Bug"... that one was way weird... totally out there and i'm still not sure what it was about!!!!

hope maybe i helped someone out!!

more of a vent then a blog...

2009-08-02T18:34:00.001-07:00

You know.... as a new mom i was prepared for all experienced moms to give me some advice and all... but gosh.. there is a difference between advice and telling me how to be a mom... that aggrevates the crap out of me.. when someone tells me how to raise my child ... ugh!!! I do'nt care what you did with your children and how 'fine" they are now... i don't when you started feeding them real food and giving them juice and all that other junk... this is my child.. my child is way different then your children... he was 6 weeks early and his body is still in process and all... this is MY child... not yours... now i understand alot of things....

anyways.. now that i feel better about that... Don't you hate it when someone who you thought was a best friend finds a guy and then they fall madley in love and then they totally leave you out of everything and act like ya'll never knew eachother... well i do.. it sucks majorly.. I know I did it to some back when me and josh first started dating but i didn't realize how much it sucks!!... I am deeply and truly sorry to all of my friends that i betrayed and left out.. i never ment to hurt you like this.. i just now feel used... girls are not so nice.. i have known of other girls to do this and been through this but i thought she would of been different.. yeah right.. girls are girls.. i still love her and i'm not downing her but i wish she would realize what she is doing and maybe i'm not the only one who feels like this!!

okie dokie.. so for some good news.. my brother starts highschool tomorrow.. holy cow.... time flys... i'm kinda almost scared for him.. but he has some good teachers.. and hes gonna be in ROTC.. maybe that will do him so good!!

And Evan is doing just fine... He is around 13lbs and growing soo fast!! I love that little boy!! I'm pretty sure he has colic.. which sucks for me.. but i feel soo had for him!! I'm just so inlove with him!!....... and me and josh are doing just lovely! he is a great help to me and a wonderful boyfriend/ daddy!!

3 Months and Growing!

2009-07-30T20:31:00.000-07:00

Well today Evan is 3 months old.. haha yes I tend to celebrate monthly until I loose count :)

but he is getting so big and cuter than ever.... i love my little man, he is my everything!!! He doesn't go back to the doctor untill his 4 month check-up but I wanted to know how much he weighed; so while at my brothers open house (hes a freshie at HCHS) I went and visited my favorite teacher ever and weighed him in her room (she just happened to have a baby scale)...... he weighs roughly 13lbs... he had his clothes on and all... so i was like "golly gee you fatty"... but he is soo precious!!

Going back to the open house.... Henry County High is so flippin' huge... holy cow I got lost more than once... it goes from the 100 hall to the 1000 hall.... its ridiculus!!! Ha and my brother just about has to go back and forth the whole day (haha)

My future plans still remain the same, I still intended on going to Griffin Tech. (for what I still don't know)... actually I woudn't mind at all being an EMT, but I really don't want to risk missing Evans first christmas or birthday or any of that good stuff.. so forget that.... I'm not really sure what I am going to do.... I do know that I am going to take an Auto Mechanic Class, I think it will be a good spend of money!!... Which reminds me of this one time me and a really good friend of mine said we would open up a female mechanic shop... haha.. we still might do it!!

Evan is the cutest bundle of joy around and I love that little baby.... He is starting to be more fussy at night and he likes to throw up occasionally ( and that usually ends up all over me)... but he is getting so much better. He is also sleeping 5-8 hours at night ( which puts me in a way better mood through out the day).... All in all... things are well!!!

It's a Name Thing!

2009-07-21T20:42:00.000-07:00

okay... so i lied about the scrat thing... its not sticking what so ever!!... no name really seems to stick.. maybe its not time for a nickname.... i guess i will have to stick to punkin or chunky for now...

i like nicknames... and i think they are special.. and you don't neccessairly have to have the same nickname for everyone to call you...

like me... my aunt Gina calls me tator.. she always has and she is the ONLY one who calls me that.. its special... and my pawpaw (who has passed) used to call me tootsie pop... that was special too....

so i want it to be special... but then again i want him to have a name ppl can call him besides evan... i don't know y i just think its cool.....

so for now its punkin, chunk, grunt, scooter (thats a new one) and josh calls him "jig-a-boo" and mama calls him sweet potatoe.... and josh's mom calls him jelly bean.. so i don't know... i personally don't think any of these will stick and we will have to wait till he gets a little older to figure it out!!

Who (or what) is a scrat??

2009-07-16T13:49:00.000-07:00

So... me and Josh have really been trying to find a nickname for Evan... punkin, lil' man, jelly bean, and sweet potaote have already been takin'... We wanted something different... something that everyone doens't use... something that would stick and not get worn off when he gets older.... so after a few dozen ideas.... we finally agreed on something..... "Scrat"

Why Scrat... not really sure.... oh and if u don't know who scrat is... he is the squir off of Ice Age who is always chasing after the acorn.... but anywho.... Evan looks exactly like him with the big eyes and cute bushy tail :).......... So now you know!!!!

So... I'll be a follower!!!

2009-07-07T10:28:00.000-07:00

So... I seen that my lovely friend Nicole is participating in a "blog hop" .... and this weeks theme is "Favorite Picture"... wow I have soo many favorite pictures especially now since Evan has became my main focus!! So I split it up........ my favorite picture before Evan....

this is a lion at the Wild Safari at pine mountian... it reminds me of something off the lion king!!

And my favorite picture after Evan..... this was while he was in the NICU...just a couple of days old..... and already smiling :)

So i just might make this a weekly thing!!!

2 months

2009-07-02T11:33:00.000-07:00

So yes it's been a while... inbetween feedings and diappers and trying to catch some "me" time to eat or shower... it has been a hectic month.... but there is some good stuff going on around here :)

Evan is 2 months old

10lbs 9oz

22 inces long

Healthy

Stomach issues... but its getting better

He is holding his head up more more every day

I think he'll be crawling by the end of the summer

sleeping longer at nights 5-6 hours (which makes me happy)

so overall things are great.... he has been quite the fussy one though lately and is a spoiled rotten child... loves being held!!

This was at Josh's Cousin's Wedding in Tennessee..... needless to say, Evan is not quite ready for 5 hour trips, but he was overall a good baby and I'm glad me and josh got to spend alot of time together, no tv.. no phone... just us talking... it was good!!! And the wedding was beautiful :)

1 month later!!!

2009-06-04T12:43:00.000-07:00

7 lbs 8oz

20 1/2 inches long

1 month old

and as cute as could be!!

I love my lil' man!!

oh... and as for me... i am doing really good... getting use the the no sleep... and the bottle washing... and the clothes folding... and the smelly spit up.... and enjoying every miniute of it :)

and i'm back down to the weight i started at before the baby... and back into my bluejeans :)

As I look back....

2009-05-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

So today is the graduation for the class of 2009 and it made me look back on this past year. I gradutated class of 2008 and since then have had one interesting year!

I lost a very special person in my life, but later on got him back and better than ever!
I worked with some pretty amazing people over the summer and gained a very special friend who i will never forget!
Went to a conference were I found and grew my relationship with Jesus!!
I went to college, moved onto campus, and met some amazing people while there!
Met a girl who will hold a special place in my heart forever and we will remain friends forever!!
Got pregnant and had baby.... this i do not consider a mistake at all.. I love my son more than ever!!
Finished my first year of college :)
Mastered ROCK band... just to throw in here!
Became closer to some people who i love and care about deeply!
Fell in love all over again with a wonderful man who will always have a big place in my heart!!

so through out this year i have experienced alot of ups and downs and can't wait to see what this upcoming year has in store!!

my chunky monkey!!

2009-05-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

3 weeks old!!

went to the doctor today... Evan now weighs 6lbs 4oz.... he is doing just wonderful!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVAN!

2009-05-14T09:14:00.001-07:00

APRIL 30, 2009

1 WEEK OLD
2 WEEKS OLD

WOW.... What a Week!!

2009-05-04T06:42:00.001-07:00

wow...what a week i have had... soo much has happened.... i'll start from the begining!!

Friday (april 24th) i went to the doctor for a check up and it was then i was admited to the hospital b/c my blood pressure was through the roof and i had too much protein in my urine... so i went to HMC for a 24 hour observation... well 24 hours turned into the whole weekend and my doctor was out of town for the weekend so the fill in doctor kept a check up on me and from her point of veiw she wanted to do a c-section monday morning b/c i was donig so bad.... but we waited till my doctor got back monday morning

monday came and my doctor looked at all the test results and said that my toxemia was getting worse but not severe enough to deliever.... by that night i was getting better and we were looking at a tuesday night release

tuesday morning i woke up with a severe migrain and was trowing up everywhere... it was horrible... so the doctor made me stay in the hospital for more test.... this was a sign of worsening of the toxima... the next step was seizures so he wanted to monitor me closely...

by wednesday night i still had the headache but i wasn't bad cuz of all the medicine i was on... but doc decided that i wasn't getting better and a delivery would be best... at this time i was 34 weeks so he knew that it woiuld be okay

thursday morning i was induced and we just waited.... he broke my water around lunch and i was dialted at a 4 by 2 o'clock .... the epideral helped some but i was still hurting.... by 9 i was only dialeted to a 5 and i needed to be atleast a 6.5- 7 to deliever and my bloood pressure wasn't getting any better so we ended up having to do a c-secrion

Baby Evan was born at 9:56 pm on April 30th, at 4lbs 40z, 17 1/2 inches long and the cutest ever. I got to hold him right after he was born but then they put him in the NICU (baby ICU) .... i didn't get to see him again till friday night..

the doctors were mainly worried about his lungs being fully defeloped and they were... he didn't have to have any tubes down his throat or be in a incubator or anything.. he is doing just fine... their second worry was him eating.. and let me tell u.. he is doing very well in that area... he is a little piggy.. but that is a good thing :)

so i got to come home sunday night but had to leave Evan behind.. i know that he is in good hands and i will visit him often.... i know though that i will need the rest and recovery before Evans big arrival... and healing from a c-section is hard core... so i guess it is semi- a good thing.. i miss my little buddy though!

i wanted to say thank you for all of the thoughts and prayers while in the hospital.. they really did work... and will continue to work while Evan is still growing and healing! and a special thank you to Josh.... Josh was there the whole time while i was in the hospital.. he was there every night struggling to sleep in the chair or on the so called couch... and there all day to make sure i had everything i needed... got to be in the room during the c-section and help my hand the whole time with out getting sick and helped me in every way possible during my recovery.... he got to feed evan and chang his diapper and hold him.... Josh was onlyh the best boyfriend during this past week and i know i would of not made it if it wasn't for him! i know he is going to be the best dad ever!

i also wanna thank my parents... especially my mama... she was my sole supported through the whole thing... she was there every time i needed her and came to my rescue multiple times... she put up with my random phone calls of bordness and my many times of tears... i love her so very much and i know that even though i had a baby i am still her baby girl and she will always be there for me

and i also wanna thank lexa, kayla, and abigail....... lexa and abigail came and hung out with me and my family during the delivery and stayed the whole 5+ hours untill i came out of recovery... kayla kept me company all day friday and constantly called and checked on me and Evan and made sure we had everything we needed..... all 3 of them also came to my most needed rescue and helped me wash my hair.. u will never know how much happier that made me feel

these aren't the only people who i am thankful for... i am thankful for everyone who thought about me or Evan during the past week of suffering and pain.... i got plenty of visitors and presents and i know multi-millinos of thoughts and prayers,,, that means the most to me!

in the mean time... i am at home recovering and Evan is in good hands at the hospital getting better and better everyday.. he is my rock!! i love that little man so very much and am already so proud of him :)

THE DOCTOR SAYS........

2009-04-21T14:42:00.000-07:00

I'm healthy.... Blood Pressure was good
Baby is healthy...
i've Gained too much weight (well to me i think i have)
Baby Evan weighs 4.5lbs
If i stay healthy.... i will hold till about 37 weeks (but no later)
but if something goes wrong... then immidiate delievery
Evan has a head full of hair
He is also a lazy baby.... and stubborn
I'm Still going twice a week to keep a check up on us

so all in all today was a good day..... oh and i gots my crib and dresser today at babies r us.... so so cute.. and i will upload pics later... in the mean time 2 weeks of school left and a babie shower sunday :)

"What do you want?"

2009-04-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

so... with baby showers coming up... i have been asked a lot what I need or want.... well frankly i don't really care... i am not a picky person what so ever and i love whatever you love.. i'm one of those ppl who think it is all about thought
but just for information.....

i am registered at Babies r us.... wal-mart... and target
i have... crib, bedding, bassinet, A car seat, and some outfits, and a stroller.. i think thats it
so frankly i need everything.. and if u have had a baby then u know what is majorly needed and what u wish people would of got you and stuff..
so for now that is the answer....

and ahh.. the room is almost ready.. i'm soo excited and will post pictures..

as for an update.... i am 33 weeks and going to the doctor tomorrow for an ultra- sound and hopefully all will be well... all i want is to finish school which my last day is may 6th.. ... and then baby evan can come!! in the mean time i am on bed rest and just chilling.... i'm getting sooo excited and scared... and just AAAHHHHH!!!!

What a Hour....

2009-04-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

so today i went back to the doctor... and wow what a lot of information i received...

i don't have toxemia
i do have "pregnacy hypertention (high blood pressure)
i am still on bed rest... well kinda... i can still go to class and stuff
i have to go back to the doctor 2x a week
one of those visits will be an ultra-sound b/c hypertention can mess up the fetal growth so they want to monitor that
i can still get toxemia... it is possible
10-1 i won't get to have my june baby.... it will be may... doc wants to try and hold him in till i'm atleast 35 weeks.. .which is only 3 weeks away... but that is not guarnteed... my health comes first (but i feel that i can manage that long)

so that was my visit today.. i go back next week.....

in the mean time.. i have 3 weeks of school left, thank God, and i'll be done.... both baby rooms are still a working progress and so are baby showers.. which is sooo exciting!!... i love this baby that has a big head.. which i was also informed of today :) so i will deft. keep everyone updated and let me know if u have any questions!

Bed Rest....

2009-04-09T16:53:00.001-07:00

so... today i went to the doctor for a regular ol checkup... and by blood presure was kinda high.. well alot high.... so dr. schilling admited me to the hospital immediatly... i was by myself and scared out of my mind.... and he also found blood in my urine.... so i possibley have toximia... which from what i am told... is high BP and alot of swelling in my hands/ feet/ face.....so i spent the afternoon in the hospital and josh and mama came to my resuce..... but after the blood work came back...nothing seemed to high and my bp lowered while i was there.. which is what they wanted..... i am on complete bed rest for the weekend...... and at home!

oh joy.. 3 days of laying on my side..... ugh!.. but baby evan is doing really well.. he behaved while i was in the hospital.... so i will def keep ya'll updated... i go for a follow up visit monday with dr. schilling.... so this is a start to what i thought was going to be a boring weekend!! please keep me occupied!

blossoming over night!

2009-03-27T21:35:00.001-07:00

so... today i went to the doctor.. and everything is good!!... i and the baby are healthy.. besides the fact that i have low iron.. which i have always had.. but she put me on a vitamin to help so we won't have complications during birth..... but other than that, we are good to go..... oh and just an update i have gained a total of 10 lbs since this pregnancy.. .which from what i've herd is really good!!! i have been gainging like one pound a month and then from feb to march i gained 5... wow all in one month.. but i have also done alot of expanding through the month as well.... so that is probably why!

i swear this baby is ready to come out.... physcially not but evan likes to sit really low and today he was head down.... i thought it was funny..... he must not like it in there.... oh and he loves the shower... i can feel him stretch out to the limits while i'm in the shower... it is adoriable!!

so after the doctor.. me and lexa went to a consignment sale at AMS and there was SOOOO much stuff there... like omg...i wanted to buy everything.... they had soo many good deals and such cute stuff.... i went to look for a crib originally.. but didn't leave with one..... but thats okay... i still have a while.... but i did get evan an outfit that is too cute... and me an outfit (lol) and oh a bassinet... there all so cute...

and i got to see the wonderful nicole and talk to her for a minnute which was good..

i ended the day with moes and dairy queen where i found my new favorite blizzard (oreo mint) and then ate dinner with the fam. and hung out with josh!..

overall today was a good but long day :)

I think i'm hitting the normal stages.......

2009-03-24T17:05:00.000-07:00

so... the pregnancy symptoms are finally hitting me.... wow took long enough right??? i know am gaining weight... and a belly.... enjoying frequent kicking.... and having some good ole cravings!!!!

and things are getting soooo exciting... baby shower planning and clothes and yard sales... and just wow.... eeeeeeeeeeeeee i am sooo ready for this baby but could also keep him inside forever.... i don't know what a "bad" pregnancy is.. but i've herd horor stories... and this pregnacy has been a ball for me.. i have loved every minnute of it....

mama laughs at me because i am starting to complain about my back and bladder grabbing and kindey squishing.... but dang that hurts..... and people laugh when i stand up b/c it takes me a good 5 seconds to do that too!!.. but o well the joys of growing!!! i go to the doctor friday for a check up and i am soo excited but now i have to start going every 2 weeks.... this baby is comming.... and fast!!!!

i am also finally done with my baby registering... that takes forever.. fun.. but forever!!!... i picked babies r us.... wal mart... and target.... and for some reason didn't but any clothes on there because all baby clothes are cute.. and that takes forver.... and on alot of things i wish i could of just typed in what i wanted.... b/c i'm not picky and don't really care what color or pattern it is... i just need one (like a car seat.. or bibs..).... but whatever.... it is still all so exciting!!

ps.. i'm 7 months.... 29 weeks :)

Time Flys...

2009-03-21T03:20:00.000-07:00

so... wow... i was sittting back thinking and talking to the bestie abigail... and realizing that time is valuable... time flys by like .. fast.... like...zzzzzzoooooooooooooommmmmmmmm fast!!

it is ridiculus....

but where does it go... b/c alot of society complains about how slow the day is going or how long the week is.. but in reality they are all the same amount of time and in the big picture time is really passing you by.... time that u can't get back...

i can remmeber like yesterday the day i found out i was pregnant (oct. 17th but confirmed oct. 31st) and just wow... that was not that long ago... 5 months ago to be exact... and now i am 7 months pregnant and fixing to have a real life baby (yeah not one of those fake ones like barbie)

or the first time i met josh... wow um.. almost 4 years ago... and the whole story behind it!!

and wow.. my first year of college is almost over... in 6 more weeks to be exact... and i can't tell u how many times i've wanted to quit and give up and complain.. but in reality i've almost completed it.. a whole year.. well 9 months.... and my first day of college.. oh lordy... and the first night was amazing thanks to a trip to mcdonalds with some very cool people who most of them i still talk to!!....

time is very precsious.... just one moment... and you can miss that one moment if u are trapped in the past or the future....i've decided to no longer complain about how "slow" time is going.. b/c if u are not focused u could miss that one important moment (like a babies first word).... time is a gift that God gives us...

and on a side note.. at church (TPC) we are doing a series called "live like you were dying" (yea like the song)... but our pastor is challenging us to live the next 30 days (well probably more like 20 days now) to live like we were dying.... that is the most precious 43200 minnutes of your life.. right there.... the next 30 days..

so don't take another day for granted... time is very very valuable and special!!!!

ME..... 6lbs later!!

2009-03-19T16:33:00.000-07:00

so... i am 28 weeks..... 7 months... and in my 3rd trimester and i look like this.........

just thought i would share my wonderful looks... 7 months and 6lbs later!!!

What is Sleep???

2009-03-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

so... sleep is something that i miss dearly..... all last month i would wake up at random moments during the night and be wide awake.... y i don't know... but i believe it was God preparing me for this baby and me having to wake up at random moments all through out the night. Now my body has gotten over that but now there is a new problem... actually falling asleep... if i can get to sleep.. i'll stay asleep for atleast 4 hrs... but i am having problems acutally being sleepy.... see now it is 12:45am and i'm ready to party... y i don't know... during the day i love to sleep and have gotten really good at it... but something about night time.... my body doesn't want to sleep!
some say there is an actual thing called "pregnant insomnia".... .which if it is real then i defiantly have it.... wow.... well maybe one day i will actually be able to sleep a whole 8 hrs...

on the mean time... i'm eating more.... my body has usually been getting really full (like the first 5 1/2 months of this pregnancy) but now i am eating more. like before i would only eat like 2 chicken tenders or a jr. hamburger and be completley full.... but i would then be hungry again in like 2-3 hrs..... but now i eat through out the day... just about everyday.. some days i don't even feel full... EVER!!!...... like ha last night mama told me she was proud of me b/c i ate 3 pieces of pizza.... i don't know.. .. that is probably y i have only gained 5lbs this whole pregnancy.... but if the baby is healthy then all is well... which he is!

so in the mean time.. i have become really addicted to a game called super stacker.... totally fun!
and i'm excited b/c baby showers are coming up :)..... Evan is very active now and loves kicking and punching... but its soo cute!... we fight back and forth (ask me in person) and it is just adoriable!!!........

i have also been looking for a book to read.. like for pleasure... and haven't really found one of intrest.. so if u have an ideas... let meknow........ but for now it is wayside stories (thanks to Kayla)

just an update!

2009-03-15T19:39:00.000-07:00

So... just wanted to say... that I and Evan are healthy... yes Evan... that is the name that me and Josh has decided on (for now atleast)..... i really like that name and it is not that popular nor that odd.... but i also decided that if he comes out and doesn't look like an Evan then i will change it (duh)... but anyways... we are healthy and doing just fine....

now i am finishing up school (9weeks) and getting the baby rooms ready.... things are getting sooo exciting..... i have loved every minnute of it... no sickness.. no pain... but now i am getting a little back pain... and it is harder to get up.... but i am still loving every minnute of it!

i go back to the doctor next week-ish..... for a check up and all...

in the mean time i am wating on the results of my sugar test and enjoying the last of my spring break!....

Decisions, Decisions!!

2009-03-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

so... nothing really new going on... i don't go to the doctor for another 2 weeks.. ahh seems like forever!... i went and go tested for gestational diabetis and that was the worst test to ever doo... u have to drink this nasty sugary water crap and then wait 1hr... and then they draw your blood..... i won't know anything till next week but still.. ugh!!

and i have been stressing about a name and nursery theme... well not anymore!!!

i realized that i get to design to nursery roooms.... one at my house and one at josh's house... so i think i've narrowed it down... one safari one from the prev. blog... and then the blue and brown one... from the prev. blog...

on the second one i'm gonig to add monkeys and stuff to it just for cuteness... i'm really excited!!

and oh.. kayla and missy are throwing me a baby shower at the church i found out and i'm supper excited about that.... and then my cousin christy is throwign me one for my family and friends and thats all i know about for now!.....

as for a name.. i've been choosing between Evan or Cooper... i love them both.. but for now i am sticking with.......... Evan.... me and Josh both love that name... but if he comes out not looking like an Evan then i'm gonna change it.. b/c he should look like his name (duh)...

oh but if u are reading this... don't tell anyone i chose a name.. i want more people to read my blogs and this is one way to get them too!!!!

so wow i am in my 3rd trimester... well as of monday i will be... and that is like major... the baby can come anytime after that... wow... scary!! and i'm due in june which seems far away but its not really.... i'm 27 weeks.. so i got 13 to go!!... wow....

i do have cravings... but not major ones... like last night i had a strong random craving for a honey bunn....... and i have random strong cravings for the white mexican cheese dip.... and i eat chick-fila and taco bell atleast 4 times a week..... i would pick some of the not so healthy foods!!

a recent update.....

2009-03-06T10:11:00.000-08:00

so yeah... i'm getting my baby bump :) it is soo cute... and i'm soo excited... and feeling the baby kick is sooo amazing... and mama and josh got to feel him kick too.. it is the cutest feeling

ever that i know i am going to miss!

ha during the ultra-sound he was playing with himself and i thought it was soo cute but almost embharising ... i love this baby.... and heartburn is a butt... it is the worst fe

eling ever!

in the mean time here are some pictures.... just for your pleasure!

and i've narrowed my names down... evan rone... or cooper rone... i love both of them soo much! and so many people i know are having babies.... and it gets me sooo excited... there are also some rooms i like that i am still deciding on

i can't get the other one to upload so here is the link!

http://s7d5.scene7.com/s7ondemand/zoom/flasht_zoom.jsp?&company=ToysRUsGSI&config=defaultZoom&zoomwidth=500&zoomheight=558&sku=p4628891

i think both are precious and there are things i like about each of them.... i love this baby so very much and can't wait for him to come.... and we are both healthy as of my docotors appt. feb 26th.... i've only gained 5lbs and he has a good strong heartbeat...go us!!

BOY OR GIRL?? (jan 27th)

2009-03-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

so i went to the doctor on jan. 27th for my first ultra-sound... josh came with me and wow was that one special day! i was soo excited.... everyone.. well just about everyone.. said i was having a boy but i didn't wanna listen... and i still had a thought/scare that i was having twins.. i just wanted to know!

seeing my baby for the first time was one special thing.. just the little head and feet and hands and all.. soo adoriable.... and yup there was only one.... that made me happy... even though i would of loved 2 twice as much.. one was all i needed right now.... and yup.. it was a boy! everyone was right... but after that i thought that maybe having a a boy would be better for me.. i don't know how i would of done with all of the glitter and barbies and hair and hannah montana and stuff... sports are more my thing.... God knows what u need!

mama was soo excited when she got the phone call... mama is just excited period .. she walks around saying "im gonna be a grandma, i'm gonna have a grandson"... she makes me laugh!

on the down side i did sufer from a bladder infection.. and some pain but all was well..

the baby was 1lb 3 oz at that time and we were both healthy (and still are)

that day will always be in my heart...

oh lordy.. now i gotta find a name... i don't really like boy names... but josh's mom put a stop on howard and axle... so now we are back to start... hmm name??

i ended up liking evan, caleb, cooper, alex, charlie...

but i'm not really sure... cooper the pooper... caleb is common.... alex is ehh.. and charlie from charlie and the chocolate factory... so i odn't know..... i just really don't like boy names.... i'll find one though one day!

i still don't really look pregnant... i'm just kinda in this fat stage.. but i should grow out more!!

and i realized that i have some pretty amazing friends... thakns guys!!!

the first trimester!!! (nov, dec, jan,)

2009-03-02T12:26:00.000-08:00

hearing the heart beat was amazing... at 13 weeks.. ahh ... so cute..and josh came with me.... but that is when we found out that i could possibley having twins.... wow... me twins!

i can't fit into any of my clothes.. which is horrible .... but i don't look that big... i just look.. funny

josh has been really supportive.... and every since all of this.. he has been a way better boyfriend... i know that he will be a great father..... it may take him sometime but i know that his fatherly sences will kick in eventually...

my baby likes to hang out really low..... oh and i felt the foot for the first time... not like a kick but i was rubbing my stomach and there was a bump thing.... mama said it was a foot... sooo cute!!!

and i have been thinking of names...

for a girl.. i like

rylan jae

and max (maxiene) leanne

and for a boy

i don't really like boy names... i just don't like them... ugh... but josh likes

howard :p

and axle...

um no i dont like either one of those.... but if it is a boy Rone will be the middle name b/c that is josh's middle name and it is passed down from generations and all... no last name decision yet nor no marriage decision.... we are just still working on our relationship and all!

i love this baby!

Breaking the News! (november)

2009-02-28T21:29:00.000-08:00

so i went to the doctor ... and yup thats it... i'm pregnant... wow... me.. pregnant... who would of thought... wow.. did i screw up or what...
mama doesn't seem to be too upset.. shes excited that she is getting a grandbaby and all... i didn't tell daddy... mama had to... she said he was upset .. but that was expected!
telling josh wasn't easy either... but hes okay with it.. and wants to be every part of this babies life...
how am i gonna do this..... how can i raise a baby.... how can i tell everyone... wow this is majorly big!

i think the hardest person to break the news to was missy... that was hard... but i think she handled it better than i expected... but she really helped me in a big way... i love her!

so i know i'm defiantly gonna keep it.. adoption wasn't a thought and abortion wasn't an option... mama seems very supportive and so do all of my friends and family!
i know now that this baby was not a mistake... i made a mistake but it brought a blessing...

I finally gave in....

2009-02-28T08:18:00.000-08:00

so i have been keeping a "journal" on my computer.... but never got around to opening up a blogger account till now... hmm.. i'm a slacker... o well.. i finally did it after seeing that all the cool people had a blog spot thing (like missy and kayla and jordan and nicole) so here we go... i'lll be posting alot in the next week cuz like i said.... i've already wrote most of them from the past... but i won't give u that much to read in an entire setting...

so for post one.......

an overview!!!!

As some or most of you might know... i am expecting my first baby in june... i am supper excited and can't wait for this little bundle of joy to be here...

i don't consider this a mistake, becasue God doesn't make mistakes, but a blessing or a gift even..... in the words of a ms tonya.... any 2 ppl can.. yeah... but only God can bring a baby... he is giving me one of his children to raise up and nurture....
do u ever just sit back and think... as a parent.. God is trusting YOU to raise one of HIS children.... that took me a while to get in...
so in the mean time... i am doing the best i can and taking in the joy and happieness that this baby is gonna bring!!!