more of a vent then a blog...

You know.... as a new mom i was prepared for all experienced moms to give me some advice and all... but gosh.. there is a difference between advice and telling me how to be a mom... that aggrevates the crap out of me.. when someone tells me how to raise my child ... ugh!!! I do'nt care what you did with your children and how 'fine" they are now... i don't when you started feeding them real food and giving them juice and all that other junk... this is my child.. my child is way different then your children... he was 6 weeks early and his body is still in process and all... this is MY child... not yours... now i understand alot of things....

anyways.. now that i feel better about that... Don't you hate it when someone who you thought was a best friend finds a guy and then they fall madley in love and then they totally leave you out of everything and act like ya'll never knew eachother... well i do.. it sucks majorly.. I know I did it to some back when me and josh first started dating but i didn't realize how much it sucks!!... I am deeply and truly sorry to all of my friends that i betrayed and left out.. i never ment to hurt you like this.. i just now feel used... girls are not so nice.. i have known of other girls to do this and been through this but i thought she would of been different.. yeah right.. girls are girls.. i still love her and i'm not downing her but i wish she would realize what she is doing and maybe i'm not the only one who feels like this!!

okie dokie.. so for some good news.. my brother starts highschool tomorrow.. holy cow.... time flys... i'm kinda almost scared for him.. but he has some good teachers.. and hes gonna be in ROTC.. maybe that will do him so good!!

And Evan is doing just fine... He is around 13lbs and growing soo fast!! I love that little boy!! I'm pretty sure he has colic.. which sucks for me.. but i feel soo had for him!! I'm just so inlove with him!!....... and me and josh are doing just lovely! he is a great help to me and a wonderful boyfriend/ daddy!!